And when I'm in a funny mood, I often feel like blogging, as it helps me figure out why the hell I feel this way.
Right, so as some of you may know, I'm currently in London. I've been feeling more and more homesick, and even more so now that I'm travelling alone. I've also been thinking about the friends I've made through the internet too.
I told myself that I wouldn't ignore the internet. Sure, I'd spend way less time on it, and I'd enjoy the freedom from my computer, but I still wanted to maintain contact. I don't think I've done that very well. I've had very few decent conversations with people, and some people I've pretty much ignored completely. I feel terrible for this.
I also said I'd make videos and vlogs while away. I've failed at that too. Realistically I haven't had the time or space to do vlogs, and I don't mind not having done any. I do feel bad for my subscribers though. I haven't made a video for a month, and it'll be another 2 weeks until the next one. Considering I made 50 videos in 6 months, this isn't my usual level.
I think I will start afresh when I return to NZ. I'm going to have a massive clean-up of my videos, so the number reduces drastically. Also, I may separate my music and my vlogs onto different channels. At the moment I kind of feel like they are competing with one another, and I'm sure some out there would rather watch one or the other. So I think I'll give them that opportunity.
Less vlogging next year I think too. I don't really know who I'm doing it for anymore. I've made so many friends out of this experience, and that's all I really wanted to do through this whole YouTube thing. Clearly filmmaking is not my expertise, so why bother with something I don't have a huge passion for. This is why I may stick largely to music. I get more pleasure out of that.
I've been writing heaps over here. Not just songs and poems, but I've started a novel too. I'll update on how that's going later.
I'll give an update on the trip at a later date. I just can't be fucked talking about myself anymore.
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1 comment:
stop worrying and start enjoying the last days you have left in England.
Go to Bath and meet Johnny, Charlie or Alex Day.
Your internet friends don't mind not seeing a vlog. I should know, cos I'm one of 'em.
I follow your every step on twitter.
Visit South Kensington Park and feed a few squirrels. If that won't make you happy, then go to my aunt's around the corner and try her soup. :o)
Try avoiding Guinness.
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