Bitch bitch bitch, nag nag nag.

I want to say a few things here.

Firstly, I hate exams.

Secondly, I have failed at least one course, and there is a decent chance of me failing up to three of my four courses which I am taking. This is not a happy thought.

Thirdly, I am suffering from severe writers block. Every song, every poem, every darn thing I try to write that actually has any meaning just looks like shit on a page to me, so all I do is tear it up. It's frustrating, because I feel like I have stuff to write about, but I can't fucking articulate it into any kind of lyrical form.

You can probably tell from this that I'm just not in a good mood at the moment. Of course, whenever I'm upset, I smoke more, I drink more, and I just get run down.

Then I look at what I have written, and all I can see is me bitching.

I don't want to turn this blog into my little corner where I sit and cry about how much my life sucks, but I just had to get this off my chest, and it doesn't seem suitable for a video.

On a positive note, I really like Ryan Adams and The Cardinals' new album, Cardinology. If you like a bit of Country/Alternative, then this is for you. If you don't, I recommend you try it. I think you'll like it.

And out.

Love is a burning thing...

I know this person, who is in love, but knows that that love is impossible to satisfy.
They asked me if they were crazy for even bothering to pursue it.
I said no, you aren't.

This made me think about love, and whether it can be a rational thing.
To me, it seems that when you are young, you have extemely passionate motives, because all of your emotions are pushed to the limit. A lot of people try to mature too quickly, and withdraw from those emotions because they aren't 'rational'.

I say fuck it. When you are in your teenage years, you are at a point of discovery in your life. If you never act upon urges, you'll never experience that rush. Now, I'm not saying that you should go out and sleep with everyone you meet, this goes much deeper than that. This is when you are in love, when you can't get that person out of your head, because you desperately want them to be a part of your life.

Never second guess yourself. If things don't work out, it's fine, because you have your whole life ahead of you. If you save these urges until you get older, then you'll probably find yourself in a right mess.

Do what you can, when you can.

Peace and Love.

Everyone gathered as one....

So I'm sitting here watching videos of the gathering, and it suddenly dawns on me:

How the hell did NZYT get like this?

I mean, there is such a vibrant community on YT, something which always amazes me. Having experienced the gathering first hand, and how comfortable people are around each other, I can say that this YT thing is a very odd construction. For example, I had never once hung out with ANY of these vloggers in real life, yet I was very much able to mingle with the more well known tubers, to the point where me and Levi were hitting on each other in the downtown foodcourt.

I sometimes hear people accusing these guys of being "elitist" and not opening up to the small time tubers, but from my experience, it is the exact opposite, and they are only too happy to chat with others.

To all the guys and girls I hung out with on Saturday, thanks for a fucking awesome time.

Why on earth did I start this?

Well, there are a couple of reasons:

Whenever I'm making vlogs or other videos, I never feel like I'm taking it serious enough, or I feel too distracted to really think about what I am saying.

So, I think this is a place where I can put across a different perspective, seperate to the face I show in videos.

Also, because I'm an occasional writer, it obviously makes sense to put those kinds of things here, rather than in a video.

Anyways, that's it for now. A proper post will be forthcoming.