Right, so I've made no secret of my sexuality either here or on YT, but for the most part, while I've been open about it online, I was very much in the closet irl.
Since being a part of the YT community, I've become more comfortable when it comes to actually telling people. Recently I've been telling a lot of my closest friends, and it comes as quite a big weight off my back. Of course, there are some who I have not told, like the people I know who would make it a big deal, and really ruin a friendship. I haven't told my family either, and I think that's a big step. I have an uncle who thinks it's about time we had another gay in the family, and so has taken it upon himself to ensure it's not one in my generation. I know my immediate family wouldn't care, but it's the extended family who I know would judge me, and possibly damage an already estranged relationship they have with my parents. I don't think I'm ready just yet.
A friend of mine recently came out. When he told me, I was a little shocked, but somehow I seemed to know. It's funny, but I think this gaydar thing really exists :P. Anyway, I've been sort of inspired by this to start being more open about myself to my closest family and friends. I think I'm gonna have some fun in Europe, and then start fresh when I get back, and open up.
I'm looking forward to this year.
2 comments:
im proud of you for using your newfound confidence to your advantage.
and if you need a hug when you're trying to come out to anybody who doesn't support you fully, i will be standing here with open arms.
I said it before and I'll say it again.
I heart you. This blogpost is yet another reason why.
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